I Suck!

Not even one day! I had to do it. Went back to the Rumor Queen site. There is something about a November LID family being told they will get their referral in November? The Rumor Queen says this rumor sounds to good to be true? Dare I hope???? With a December LID will I get my referral In December???? And I'm sucked right back in again.......

And down I go!

Referrals are on the way. Cut off date is July 13th. I don't know why I do this to myself. I compare it to buying a lottery ticket. I just know I am gonna win but never do. It's the same way with the rumors I read. I convince myself that they are true. I (along with everybody else) was really hoping a whole months worth of referrals would be issued this time. Oh well, my rollercoaster ride continues. I am swearing off the rumor queens site for awhile though since I can't seem to handle what I read.

UPS and DOWNS!

Good days and bad ones. That's what it's all about. I have seen the term roller coaster ride used on several blogs when trying to explain what we in the adoption community are going through on a daily basis. It's so true. As I have said previously, many or most of us are not given much info in regards to what exactly is going on with our wait for our referral. We rely on rumors and any tidbits of info that we are able to gather from our various yahoo groups, message boards, ect. As of late the rumors have been pretty depressing. Now today again it seems we are in the midst of some hopeful and optimistic rumors.

According to the rumor queen it again seems possible that all if not a good portion of July will be referred next. I have seen this rumor before only to later have it crushed with the July 13th cut off date referral rumor. It seems to me that if the all or most of July rumor does prove true then it would appear the CCAA is attempting to stick to the 12 to 13 month wait period v/s the dreaded 18 month wait rumor. I am crossing my fingers and toes that the better rumor ends up accurate. SO tonight I again go to bed optimistic while also knowing the ever present potential to be crushed yet again remains and is also likely.

Thank God for retail therapy :o)!!

Christopher update

Thanks for all the kind wishes sent his way. He seems to be a little better. I did not call him last night but spoke with my sister and she said he had been happier on the phone that night even laughing a little. He only got teary at the end of the conversation while saying good night to Daddy. I called him tonight and there was no answer. I am hoping that since it is Friday night that maybe there was something fun planned for them to do tonight. I did send him a big care package though today. I am so proud of him and today is hump day for him. Only 6 more days and then we pick him up . (Guess he is not the only one counting down) I will head to MD with my sisters family to get him then were off to New Jersey for a family wedding.

AHHH Retail Therapy

I have been looking for this Magnolia doll forever. I had seen her on other families blogs and she looks so soft. Finally I found her. I can't wait until she comes in!

I found these bibs at Belks. I can't wait to put them on Abby! Especially the first one.

Ladybug poncho and hat :o)

Mary Jane slippers!!

Hang in there Christopher!!!

My 9 year old nephew (pictured above with sister Erin) and "first baby" was chosen by his school this year to have the honor of attending the 2 week National Scholastic Excellence Program in Chevy Chase Maryland. This is his first trip away from home alone. He has been there since Sunday and having a bit of a hard time. He is kept very busy during the day taking neat classes that he chose beforehand including Greek Mythology and a Leadership class. It's at night after the day is done that he has been getting pretty homesick. Poor baby, he can have phone calls from 9PM until 9:30 PM. I called him tonight to see how it was going and he started crying as soon as he herd my voice. My heart is breaking for him. He is like me, a homebody and says he misses everybody and wants to see us in person. We know this trip will be good for him but I can't stand to think of him alone and hurting. I would appreciate any thoughts, prayers or good wishes anyone wants to send his way. I am really hoping that by this weekend he will have settled in........

GRIM AND GRIMMER

What can I see the news/ rumors are only getting worse. Evidently Australia is now advising their applicants to expect the wait to grow to 18 months! They are informing the families in the process because they feel they have a right to know. The CCAA was just recently in Australia so I am guessing this rumor is probably accurate. To make matters worse the Rumor Queen happened to use my LID of December as an example on her website to predict when referrals could be expected. Drumroll please....................June 2007!!!!! UGGGGGGG! The icing on the cake is the fact that when I e-mailed my agency today to discuss this new potential development I DID NOT receive a response. What to say?? Guess I'm getting on the phone tomorrow. Oh and I'm also seriously considering rebreaking my computer. I think I was better off without it.

Pity Party

I have been back on line for several days. I just haven't been in a posting mode. It seems that the initially promising rumors that I missed while my computer was down have turned into not so good ones. The dreaded 18 month to 2 year wait rumor is again surfacing and with quite a bit of back up. I just don't get it. We are all waiting..... the babies are all waiting...... so what is the darn hold up??? And how do you try and explain to your friends and family that you still haven't herd anything? I'm beginning to think that some people might even start thinking that this is not going to happen. I know it will but it is very hard to be convincing when you are unable to answer their questions as to why the wait you initially though would be 6 to 7 months has turned into 1 year and counting. I know we are all fortunate to be receiving beautiful baby's from the CCAA and I also know that they have their own agenda in determining when that will be. It is the continuing lack of information that is so frustrating. So with a LID of December I was hoping to at least have Abby's referral by December. It's now looking like it won't happen until the spring but, "Hey, Who really knows?"

7 MONTHS TODAY!

I have been logged in SEVEN months today. dare I say that I am halfway there???? My computer is on the fritz (Sp?) so I am posting from work. (after work of course!) This computer won't let me add a big 7 either. It is going to be a long 5 to 10 days for me without my laptop! Do they make a patch for this?? It already felt weird last night after I dropped it off. I kept thinking of things to look up or check and reaching for it then remembering. Oh well just means I can only check your blogs, my e-mail and message boards once a day instead of multiple checks to make sure I haven't missed anything. Gosh I think I need help! Well gotta go and see what's up on the rumor queens blog.

HAPPY JULY 4TH

This time last year while I was watching 4th of July fireworks at my parents I had thought to myself that next year Abby and I would be watching 4th of July fireworks togeather. We all know that didn't happen..... So this year I worked and had a nice day despite of it all. I'm sure the patients I took care of and their families hadn't thought their 4th of July would be celebrated at the hospital either......