Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Time will tell. Bring on the referrals the suspense is killing me :)
Monday, May 14, 2007
Sunday, May 13, 2007
I also want to take the time to wish my Mom a Happy Mothers Day. I love you and my life is better because of you! Thanks for all you do and have done for me and for all of your Love and Support during my journey to Abby. This wait has been much easier to handle with you standing beside me!!!! You are an awesome Grandmother and I can't wait for Abby to get to know and love you :)
Today I also find myself wondering if I am a mother yet? I think there is a good chance that Abby has been born by now. I have thought that before but now that I am starting to get so close to the end of our red thread I really believe it. I had a dream about a month ago that I had finally received my referral. It was my most realistic dream to date. I actually saw her face in this one. I can vaguely still picture it. (It is probably a mixture of all of the cute babies I have already seen on all of your blogs) In my dream I was holding her referral photos and I remember saying the province that she was from. Who knows what that was though because I surely would not be able to name one province in China now if you asked me too :)
Friday, May 11, 2007
It has 2 storage sections. It also comes with 20 photo sleeves for journaling. I'm thinking I will keep the clothing that she has on that day in here and any other special memento's from that special day. I also thought it was pretty special that the box matches the back of a ladybug and even more of a coincidence that the little girl pictured on the lid is Asian. Do you think Hallmark knows about the ladybug China adoption connection?
Monday, May 07, 2007
Now on to today's milestone. It is just crazy to me that it has now been 17 months since my paperwork was logged in with the CCAA. Whats even crazier is that the lucky folks that just received their referrals had been logged in for 18 months. That makes it sound like I am so close but we all know that is not the case. I am figuring on at least a 4 more month wait for Abby's referral :(
Another thing that is crazy to me is how the time is passing. It is so hard to explain what I mean. To me it seems like it was just yesterday that I was posting for my 16 month LID anniversary and now I'm up to 17 months. This past month went by lickity split but it seems like the waiting for this month to end and see what happens next is taking forever already. By the same token though each day seems to be passing quickly? Just a crazy and unexplainable feeling of time moving both fast while dragging slowly at the same time. I wish I could explain it :)
My picture I posted is how I have been counting up my LID months accrued. Each month I add a ladybug. (I get them from Hallmark) (Ignore the dust on my table) Presiding over my ladybugs is a lucky Buddha that my Mom gave me last year. And of course you can't miss my lucky bamboo plant :)
Thursday, May 03, 2007
I have been trying to decide if I should move or not before Abby arrives. My condo is on the small side. Just a little over 1100 square feet It has 2 bedrooms and 2 full baths. I'm on the 2nd floor. It's not real big on storeage so I am considering renting a small storeage place for over flow.
Why do I want to move? I am really worried that my condo just won't be big enough for Abby and I once she gets here. I know babies stuff has a way of multiplying. I already don't have enough room for all of her clothes :) I also really want a yard to take Abby out to play in. My condo fees combined with my current mortgage payment would easily allow for me to ajust to a higher mortgage payment. My condo has doubled in value since I purchase it a little over 6 years ago so there would be some good extra cash if I sold it. Plus it seems to be a good time to buy right now. If I move I would prefer to find a small home in my same neighborhood. There are several available right now.
Why not to move? I will have to get a homestudy update if I move before Abby comes. Cost around 300 dollars. With a yard comes yardwork do I really want all that and a new baby too? At least at first? I know a house will require a little more upkeep then my condo though I'm sure I would be able to handle it. Currently all my outside maintanace is taken care of and that is nice. There is also a park right across the street from me and I know we will be at my Mom's a lot too (big yard there). I am 15 minutes from work and her future daycare. I am used to it here, I like it here. It's a good safe security patroled established neighborhood.
So I guess I am just really hung up on the space thing. Do ye'all think 1100 square feet is enough space for me and Abby? Should I try it for a while and see how it goes? I wouldn't want to stress her out further by moving once she gets ajusted. Plus her room is pretty. We could try it for a year or not. Opinions???
The peanut gallary while I painted :)