Monday, August 21, 2006

Warning Pity Party

Tonight while shopping at Krogers after work, I spied a sweet little Chinese baby shopping with her Caucasian parents. She was adorable playing with a battery powered toothbrush and squealing with delight when she activated it. Normally this sight makes me smile and I either gather up the nerve to approach them or secretly stalk them for discreet glimpses of their beautiful child and dream about what my Abby might look like. Tonight my eyes just teared up and I really felt like I was going to cry right there in the store. I finished up quickly and got out of there never trying to sneak any more secret glances.

Not sure why I got so emotional tonight. Maybe it's all the bad rumors swirling out there right now, maybe it's the constant uncertainty that I and everybody else in the Chinese adoption community are forced to live with on a daily basis, maybe it's the fact that I am approaching the 9th month of this pseudo pregnancy with no end in sight to the waiting, heck maybe it's just plain PMS? Who knows but ...............

One of the loudest rumors circulating out there right now is that the CCAA is getting ready to announce some new restrictions imposed on people adopting from China. It is being rumored that China may no longer allow singles to adopt. If this happens it is rumored that this will not effect those applicants that are already logged in with the CCAA. We would be grandfatherd in but until I see that in print from the CCAA I will not relax. This also really sucks for the other singles out there currently paperchasing, I hear they are being told to get their paperwork in by Nov or Dec so that they are logged in before next year. Remember there is also currently a quota in place that only allows 8% of each adoption agencies yearly applications to adopt from China to come from singles. Meaning if they can't get a spot to submit their paperwork in time then who knows what may happen.

Lets not forget also that these rumors may or may not be true. Sadly though they are all we have to go on. So we continue to wait and wait, hoping and praying that this process speeds up, relying on faith and that what's meant to be will happen, and that we will all have our children when we are meant to.

6 comments:

Connie said...

I totally have been in your shoes...we have got to get our girls home. Still, I feel so bad for those chasing or with 2007 slots! How can it be? I so wanted mei-mei from China for my Jadyn. Mei-mei just may come from another country though I was so hoping my girls-to-be could share their heritage. At very least, they will share a mama who loves them very much!

I will get a square and wish to you for Ms. Abby.

Hey, my bloglines isn't updating you...wonder what up with that!?!

Shannon S said...

Somebody wrote this is getting less like a roller coaster and more like a ride in a blender with a 2 year old at the helm. I think that person got it right! =( This is going to happen, our daughters will be with us. Then we wait for the tide to change again for their mei-mei! =)
PS The nursery & crib are coming along!

Joannah said...

(((hugs)))

laurie said...

that sucks! but you got to get over it for now because they'll be no time for a pity party in hilton head. just a party for your big 40!and by the way, i'm much better than my children (and probably meema)at putting things together and decorating. its only like, my specialty!! see ya in a couple of days!
love ya~laurie

mom said...

Ok Ms Laurie, I will concede you the decorating (which you both do well and you know I'll be calling on you) but I hang right with you when it comes to assembling. I can tell you your cribs went together alot easier. Take care of each other in H.H. but have fun. Love you, mom

Christi said...

It is very tough, moments of strength and moments of weakness...all part of this journey. Everyone says it all washes away when you see your baby's smile and I believe it. Hang in there!