Tonight while shopping at Krogers after work, I spied a sweet little Chinese baby shopping with her Caucasian parents. She was adorable playing with a battery powered toothbrush and squealing with delight when she activated it. Normally this sight makes me smile and I either gather up the nerve to approach them or secretly stalk them for discreet glimpses of their beautiful child and dream about what my Abby might look like. Tonight my eyes just teared up and I really felt like I was going to cry right there in the store. I finished up quickly and got out of there never trying to sneak any more secret glances.
Not sure why I got so emotional tonight. Maybe it's all the bad rumors swirling out there right now, maybe it's the constant uncertainty that I and everybody else in the Chinese adoption community are forced to live with on a daily basis, maybe it's the fact that I am approaching the 9th month of this pseudo pregnancy with no end in sight to the waiting, heck maybe it's just plain PMS? Who knows but ...............
One of the loudest rumors circulating out there right now is that the CCAA is getting ready to announce some new restrictions imposed on people adopting from China. It is being rumored that China may no longer allow singles to adopt. If this happens it is rumored that this will not effect those applicants that are already logged in with the CCAA. We would be grandfatherd in but until I see that in print from the CCAA I will not relax. This also really sucks for the other singles out there currently paperchasing, I hear they are being told to get their paperwork in by Nov or Dec so that they are logged in before next year. Remember there is also currently a quota in place that only allows 8% of each adoption agencies yearly applications to adopt from China to come from singles. Meaning if they can't get a spot to submit their paperwork in time then who knows what may happen.
Lets not forget also that these rumors may or may not be true. Sadly though they are all we have to go on. So we continue to wait and wait, hoping and praying that this process speeds up, relying on faith and that what's meant to be will happen, and that we will all have our children when we are meant to.