Sunday, February 11, 2007

Ready?

Lately I have been having trouble sleeping. I lay there and all these thoughts start running through my head. Mostly I think about how my life will change once Abby gets here. Then the worries begin. Will my cats like her? Will my cats ever like each other, should I get my one cat with claws declawed before she gets here, Is my place big enough for her, will she be okay in day care, will I be able to work three 12 hr shifts weekly or should I look for a job with eight hr shifts. Will I be okay financially? It seems like the longer I wait the more I have to worry about. That said though, I can honestly say that I never worry about if I have made the right decision or if I will be a good enough Mother to Abby. Those two things I know for sure. This Is my path and this is what I was meant to do.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hang in there...I know exactly what you mean...but I just trust that it will be ok. I have no doubts that you ar emeant to be Abby's mom...and I am meant to be Lilly's mom...the deatils will all work themselves out in due time....Carrie

Sarah Sanderson-Doughty said...

Oh, Jenny- I know about racing thoughts and sleepless nights. Deep breaths. All shall be well.

Sherry Mc said...

Jen, this is meant to be. There is no question on earth on how good a mom you will be. Finances will work out and care for Abby will as well. As Sarah said, deep breaths and positive thoughts. It will not only be all right but it will be great!!!! xo Mom

C.J. said...

Ahhh...I think it's the sign of a good mama to worry about these things. You will be AWESOME and Abby will be blessed with a great mama who loves her and puts her first.

Dawn said...

Everything will be ok. it will all work out. you have lots of support from friends and family who love you and abby. we are all here for you. Dawn

Julie said...

Yes, things will change! You will get less sleep, your house won't be as clean. You won't have as much time to do the things you are doing now (so do them now!) but it is still absolutely wonderful. Can't wait to see you get the good news!

kris said...

Jenny... are you my twin? I'm 2 years from my referral (most likely) and those are my EXACT worries. 3 twelve hour shifts. Daycare. Can I afford it. Should I switch to the VA (they do 7:30-4, five days a week... eek, I've been spoiled having 4 days off)! Or, should I be the chemo nurse at an office (docs keep asking me to come), 8-5, all weekends and holidays off? Tough decisions, and I feel like I should make the changes now so I have some time in at the place I'll need time off FROM when I travel and come home!

Hang in there. I've watched my brother and his wife do it with 5, 2 still in diapers. If they can do it, we can manage with one, I'm sure!

Kris

Elisa, Jarrod & Thomas said...

You will be fine, I am having similar panicky moments about letting my husband take the adoption leave instead of me!