Monday, September 03, 2007

Pity Party

Well today's post is brought to you by the number 4. That's the number of LID'S the CCAA managed to get through this month for this batch of referrals. 4 is also the number of months worth of LID'S (per the rumor queen) that have received their referrals over the last 12 months. Kinda makes you ill doesn't it......

I knew the "some of December" rumor was to good to be true. I just knew it! So how come if I knew it then I still feel let down? Gosh darn it!! I was really hoping to have my referral by November. Is that still a possibility????? Now I have to wait a whole new month to find out.

There are 12 LID'S before my day. Of course things have to get even slower now that my turn is finally approaching. Allrighty then. This will be my only post this month with whining. I will allow myself this one day to feel sorry for myself and then I will move on. I'm sure I'm not the only one hurting today.

On a final note though.... YAY for all of you lucky parents that will finally get to see your children's faces this week! :O

24 comments:

Carol and Taylor said...

You have our deepest sympathy. Your adoption rollercoaster ride has just turned into an "E" ticket. The ups and downs only get better, and worse, from now on. Brace yourself!

I waited 3 years for my referral, but it wasn't as bad b/c my wait was waiting-list-related vs. referral-related. Somehow, I think referral-related is worse. I also experienced the cut off date being 3/22 and I was 3/23. Grrr.

On the upside, I think you'll get your referral in either November (like me) or maybe december. If you would like to see what Beijing is like in the winter, feel free to spy on my website. Its gorgeous! See www.babyjellybeans.com , enter Taylor Jordan, password Taylor.

The upside of traveling in the winter is that its cool in the south as well, where its otherwise sweltering. I know you're probably thinking who gives a damn about the weather when you want your baby, but that was the only upside I could come up with regarding this god-awful wait :(.

Hang in there, we're routing for you and Miss Abby!

Yours in sympathy and with kind regards from Miami,

Carol and Taylor

kris said...

Reminds me of the end of October, when we had that 2 day spell... how I felt for the 1/31 people (was that how it went?)...

Either way, I am SO confident you have only 2 months left to wait. That's pretty crazy amazing, it's like light at the end of a verrrrry long tunnel...

Special K said...

Sorry about this news. Everyone waiting is disappointed... but then, what's new.

I really think you'll get a referral in November! Remember that some of those 12 days are weekend days with nobody logged in. I can't find an '05 calendar but people on RQ are saying the 26-27th was a weekend. So if I counted right then 8 days until you, right?

Eileen said...

I am so sorry, this is so discouraging for everyone still waiting! You are getting closer every time though and you WILL be Abby's mom!

Joannah said...

I'm so sorry, Jenny! I was hopeful they'd get into December, too. It's got to happen this fall for you, though. It just has too!

Julie said...

Hugs.

more cows than people said...

this sucks, jenny! i'm so sorry. ((((jenny))))

Shayla's Mom said...

Oh Jenny, I'm so sorry they didn't do more days. On the bright side, you are now only 12 days away! That's major! You are so close...hang on there my friend. Seeing Abby's picture for the first time will make the wait not feel so long...trust me on this! We leave Sept. 6th to bring home Shayla, and while I've not forgotten the long wait, it just doesn't seem to matter now. It will be the same for you.

mrs incredible said...

I'm waiting for TA and feel the same sense of WHAT IS TAKING SO LONG as you do. I am praying you get your referral in November if not before.

As someone who has BTDT, I will tell you that once you see her, alll of this garbage falls to the wayside. It really does.

Sending hugs your way.

Lisa said...

I'm groaning right beside you. I was sooooo hopeing that it would be more than what we got. I was counting on 7 and not much more.

So, I guess it's time to go practice some retail therapy.

(((Hugs)))

Isabella's Mommy & Daddy said...

We are all with you...
BIG BLOGGER HUGS...
I wish this would just do a HUGE turn around and all of us would receive our little precious girls in 6 months..
Have a Great Evening.
Kim

C.J. said...

I can only imagine how awful it has to feel when you are SO close. We WILL make it...I do believe that. I can hardly wait to see your girl's face....and the look on her mama's face when she sees her for the first time.

Kim said...

Ya, I had to indulge in some retail therapy today and I couldn't bring myself to go into the baby sections. I am not so sure 12-5-05 will be matched in Oct anymore. I'm so tired of the wait!

Chris & Deb said...

I am so sorry about this Jenny....we still have 4 months of referrals to go....so I am counting on another year for us....but it must tough being on the home stretch and still not knowing how many more months this is going to take! You certainly are in my thoughts.....I am confident that you will be in China before New Years. We were there in December and it was truly glorious!

PromiseKeepersDaughter said...

Just when you think the mirage is real this time you get there to only find out it is our imagination/hopes playing tricks on us again. Here's to water in our desert! Cheers.

Looking forward to the next couple of months slipping by in your honor.

Sandwitchedin said...

AAAAWWWWW :-( I was so hoping there would be more days.

This time of waiting and preparing has brought you a solid foundation of new friendships, support and love. These women understand what you are facing because they are living it too. I'd like to think I know what its like because of infertility, but no, this is different.

You will see your sweet Abby's face very soon. Re-read some of your long-time "posters" when they were on the home stretch. Soon you will be sharing Abby's milestones and crayon drawings. YEAH!!!!

She will come, dear Jenny. She will come.

All my love,
Aunt Debbie

Donna said...

I know it has to be so frustrating. But I'd be willing to bet you'll be looking at a picture of Abby in the next two months!

Colleen said...

Oh I remember this crap well. Too well. I am SO sorry. Its hard being so close. I promise promise that when you do see her face - you will get it (the wait and why...) I never believed it when people told me this. Never. I do now.

Catherine said...

(((hugs))) friend. As hard as the wait is I can imagine that it must be much harder for you being so close. I still believe that November will be your month. Holding onto that for you.

Wendy said...

I am so sad and discouraged too. I can't believe they only did 4 days! What's up with that. I hate hearing that they were big days. I just want them to refer big weeks!!!

adele and dan said...

Your almost there!! So you will be NEXT!

Truly Blessed said...

This wait will never make sense... until you get your referral. I'm not trying to sound pithy, and it's not a cliche...

I think you'll see your sweet Abby's face in November. And then, won't you have a wonderful THANKFUL Thanksgiving! Just imagine -- Christmas in China!

I feel it...can you?

Elisa, Jarrod, Thomas & Zoe said...

Yes it sucks Nov is dragging on.
I am just so hoping that you will be next after next!

Chris & Deb said...

Hi Jenny,
Stop by our blog...we gave you an award for all of your inspiration!!!