Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Logged in 6 months today!


6 months down as of today and I am finding myself with feelings of peace. While driving home this evening, after watching my niece Erin's softball game, I was riding along listening to my favorite adoption songs. I drove and sang and thought about my wait for Abby so far and wondered how much longer it would be before we finally meet and get to spend the rest of our lives together. Feelings of frustration filled me as I drove into a thunderstorm. Then all of a sudden in the midst of all of the heavy rain the sun broke through the clouds. It was then that I felt myself filled with peace. I felt that everything was going to be alright and that this adoption is most certainly going to happen I just need to relax and realize that it is not going to happen on my timetable but when it is supposed to. It was a good feeling. I drove along now searching (as best as one can while driving 65 miles and hr on the interstate) for the rainbow that I knew was out there somewhere. Then right before the turn into my neighborhood I saw it. I knew it was there just like I know my Abby is out there waiting for me............

4 comments:

Eliza2006 said...

Thanks so much for writing this. I get so caught up in wondering when I will have Eliza that I lose sight of the fact that I WILL eventually have her...then the wait won't matter.

Tiffany

Nancy said...

Jenny,
I am so happy to hear your words... I know about the longing, wanting, wondering and all that comes with a desire which is so strong; you just dont know where you will get the strength to do "this" one more day, then something magical,freaky or very spiritual occurs and you can do it! I know you want her so bad but also know she wants you just as bad. The Lord has made the seed and the rain had to come so you will appreciate that beautiful rainbow...
Happy 6th Month...the time is passing definately not as fast as we want but it is passing. Abby is your seed of desire, rain and rainbows will also be there to get you through the good and the bad, just know you will always have this longing for Abby because she is WAITING FOR YOU, as you are waiting for her,Jen! A truth: somethings are just meant to be. You can feel it.
Love ya, Nancy

mom said...

You need to take the phrase "it is not going to happen on my timetable but instead, God's" and put it everywhere. Guess I should too. Love, mom

Shannon S said...

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Hopefully some of your peace will rub off on me! =)
All the same, Happy 6 Months LID...you and Abby will be together as you are supposed to be.